Book Work!!!!

Hi, my name is California Triple-Threat, and I’m emotionally addicted to performing. To the point where I spent the ENTIRE month of September brooding about not being booked in a show.

I’d come off an amazing-dream-come-true run of being a leading lady, and was not prepared for the huge let-down that came after the closing show. It was my first long break in almost a year. To make myself feel even worse, I’d turned down a show I didn’t especially want to do, in hopes that I would book one of the higher paying shows I had on my horizon. And then I didn’t book those. Leaving me bored, depressed, poor, and kicking myself.

The things I have found to do in my spare time are probably best left for a different blog. We all go thru slow times as performers, and I truly believe the way we invest in our craft during this time is what proves what kind of artists we are.

4 weeks after the closing of my show I received a phone call from a theater’s producer, asking if I was still available and interested in a role I auditioned for in early June. It had been a particularly long and interesting audition process, and I’d never heard back about casting, assuming they went with someone else. About a week after that phone call (and also after several emails, videos, texts, and more phone calls) they offered me the role, and now I leave in two days to spend 5 weeks rehearsing and performing in Palm Springs, CA! What has really struck me most, and the point of this post, is how much I doubted myself, my career, my choices, my dreams. I had no way of knowing that my next role was one that I had essentially, ALREADY BOOKED. I had done the work, but not believed in myself. There was nothing I could do to help or prevent booking this show, because they knew back in June if they wanted me in the show.

SO, I hereby promise to myself (and invite you to do the same) to live as if the next show is already booked. You know what it feels like… that swagger you have, knowing that there is an artistic team that believes in you and a place where you have already proved your skills. THAT confidence is what makes other people look up to you, and directors want to hire you. The unspoken but very visible look of “I’m an adventure, you know you want to watch and experience”. There isn’t room in this mentality for doubt, for self-criticism, but there is room for fun, for collaboration, for encouraging others to follow your path. Do I know what I’ll be doing after the next 5 weeks are over? NOPE! But I’m already excited about it. Let’s do this!