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2011: It’s Been a Journey

December 23, 2011

The thing I have struggled with the most this year is finding my “type.” I thought I knew who I was as a performer and kept pursuing things that I thought were right for me. But after a good 9 months of auditioning and hustling I wasn’t having any success. So starting in January of this year, I did things I could control: I got new headshots, I directed a highschool-age musical, I dove deep into more singing and acting classes, I performed in a show for no pay. I started writing for The Green Room Blog! I have learned from this year that the success I want is something that will take time. I need to be fully ready for success, and this “success” isn’t going to show up some day on my front porch. I have to want it and work for it.

As always happens after a storm, the sunshine brings hope. The months of rejection have shown me what my type isn’t – and the success at auditions and callbacks I’ve had the past few months have helped me visualize myself more the way that producers and directors see me. I’ve redefined my type in my own mind – which will only help me make a stronger impression in the audition room. And my type? Totally different then I thought I was two years ago. In fact, I’m closer in type now to where I would have envisioned myself when I first started theater 5 years ago.

“Okay”, you say, “what happens now that you know more about your type?” Well, I’ve given myself permission to only invest my time into shows and opportunities that are right for me, and are things that I am passionate about. The result? I love the people I work with, I love the roles I’m playing, I love going to work every day.

The show I’ve been performing in all autumn has been a “safe zone” for me to polish my skills, stretch my limits, learn from people I respect, and gain confidence because the artist team had the faith in me to play this role. That is the greatest payoff – and I get paid too? Even better. And yes, this role is right on top of the list of roles for my type. Yippie! I don’t even have time to be sorry over closing weekend, because January 2nd I start a new show that I am oh so excited about! I’m so thankful and assured that I am on the right path for me as a performer.

I have big plans for 2012, plans I can hopefully soon share with The Green Room Blog. Mainly, I plan on pursuing my goals without limitations and having confidence that the best is yet to come. (thanks Frank Sinatra!) Here’s to you, 2012 — I can’t wait for the adventure.

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